The Motorcycle Lane Diary : As we gazed at the sunrise...

"wherever you are
you will carry always
truth of the scars
and the darkness of your faith

what you save is
what you lose out in the end

slowly move on
how did we get to here
it all went wrong
gravity claiming all your tears
everything looks so much better now"

Yesterday
Last time i've gazed at the sunrise is about last year at P.D while having a workshop on comic development. Gazing at it was a great beautiful moment...even though it's just a gaze. Past two days i've been busied resetup my studio as i now live there alone. There's some friends who help me. I called my badak biru just to know how she doing in U.K. Then sleep at 4:00 a.m.

Today
I've felt so sleepy today but still managed to wake up at 5:45 a.m. I've a very short sleep today. I've stopped at my parent house before going to work. It's just like any other Monday, feel as lazy to go to work.

What's the deal with my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain.
There's the pitch, slow and straight.
All I have to do is swing
and I'm the hero, but I'm the zero.

when looking back to the past and return to the present time, it's feel like some people will lose something that they're own. And it's happen just like that without we're realizing that we're losing something...

I shouldn't complain
I should have no feeling, 'cuz feeling is pain
As everything I need is denied me
And everything I want is taken away from me
But who do I got to blame? Nobody but me

As a ordinary human being, complaining is just one of our nature behaviour. When we've some feeling and there's come the emotional control until we're losing control.. and comes a feeling where we're losing trust to everyone else except ourself..and felt like everyone is staying away from us.. but sometimes it's just not good to our health to think all are in our way..living is just like symbiotic system where we've to learn about each other.

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light

Life is a big studio of acting. We can be who ever we wish to be. Some people might say they know you well but indeed they're just seen the mask. In everyone of us have so many mask taht we can wear. It's just not a plain world actually.

tiptoe to your moon
a starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
and you never knew

Sometimes we're just missed someone so badly but she or he doesn't know about it. What's important is what's we believe...

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love

Sometimes it's just so hard to make a choices. Even though there's an option but it's just stucked there. Words cannot coming out from the heart. Sometimes we're just busy looking for our broken pieces. We're missing something in the past and take too much time fixing it...

You said you couldn't stay
You've seen it all before
I know
Oh, honey, that's OK

When I find out
I hope it's you who set this trap

But, to me, it's all the same
And I lost my page. Again
I know this is so rare
But, I'll try my luck with you
This life is on my side
Well, I am your one?
"Believe me, this is a chance," oh oh

Oh, it's never gonna be
It's sad, but I agree
The signals don't seem right
They last for just one night, and then
I'm sorry that I said:
"That we were just good friends"

We sometimes thought everything is gonna be okay but it won't. we sometimes too hard or not too hard learning something. Sometimes luck will work but sometimes it's won't...

So take the photographs, and still-frames in your mind.
Hang it on the shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoo's of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

In every event occured in our life should brings some meaning to our ownself. Take it's as a learning or just throw it away like a cheap trash. So whatever happens it'll make our life more meaningful and yet to be remembered...

p/s: What's going on when we're waking up from a fucked up dream suddenly everything's? looking good